It has been a while since I last posted...sorry for the absence, but life has been a tad crazy. Things have changed so drastically this week and I am both happy and INCREDIBLY sad about it. This week I started my student teaching. *sigh* While I am so happy that this is finally resolved, and I am beginning what is the end of my teaching education, I HATE being away from my kids. It is not like it is even really because I worry (they're with my sis so I know they are ok!), I just miss them. Terribly. I literally think I broke my heart. My chest hurts.
Getting my student teaching started has been nothing short of a nightmare. Because of a million and one reasons things were constantly delayed. Finally however, we got it all sorted out. I am really pleased with the outcome too--my mentor teacher is amazing, the school is great, and so are the kids. Really, I do not care about any of that though. I just want to be with my kids. Every time I think about it, my eyes well up and I get that horrible lump in your throat. The lump that literally hurts--like you are choking. While I'm gone during the day, surprisingly I'm actually ok (unless I stop to take a breath and think), it is when I'm leaving in the morning or when I get home.
I know it will get better. I know millions of people do it. I know. I know. I know. I don't care. I don't want to do it.
So........great, too bad I have to.
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Know something . . . my children and their families are the only things that have ever made me experience the heart ache you are describing. Thank God they are also my greatest source of joy. Must be the two go hand in hand. Love you all always.
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