So I don't really know where to begin this post. Things have just been so crazy the last week or two that I don't feel like I know where up is or where down is. I guess I will just start at the beginning....
During my normal visits to the doctor for this pregnancy they routinely do various tests. Well about two weeks ago one of these tests happened to come back a little abnormal and was a small indicator that I may have preeclampsia. Because of this my doctor decided to run few more tests to better understand what was going on. A week later I returned to the doctor to find out that my initial test was still abnormal, as was another indicator. So yet again more tests were ordered....which again came back abnormal. All of this combined has resulted in me being placed in the hospital being observed (i.e. more tests!) daily. The strangest thing about all of this is that my blood pressure is great--this is typically the most significant factor for preeclampsia. So I am sort of a strange case. Unfortunately because of the strange circumstances I have also had to deal with a LOT of communication breakdown among the doctors treating me.
First and foremost, I love and trust my doctor immensely. She is fantastic--level headed, very competent, caring, understanding....yada, yada, yada. She has also always told me she has great trust in the fellow doctors at her practice (many of which I have heard great things about from others); however, for some reason there has been an issue with what the "plan" is for me here in the hospital. Long story short, and bottom-line, my doctor made it very clear to both Kevin and I that I would be in the hospital either until my test results improved or Kyan was born. One or the other. Black or white. But, since that day my doctor has not been in the office or on-call for personal reasons. Therefore, I have seen a different doctor every day...that makes 4 including my doctor the first day. Each day I have been told something different. "You can go home", "no, you are staying", "I think you should be able to go home"--have been the newest three doctors thoughts. Keep in mind this has all been in spite of the fact that the main indicator my doctor was looking at has continued to get worse! Too say it mildly I have been incredibly frustrated by this experience. Note that originally my doctor said we are staying until I improve or Kyan is born...clearly neither of these things have occurred!
To make matters more frustrating...I secretly would LOVE to be home. In my heart I know it is important that I be here, but at the same time I miss Mckinley, and being home in general, SO much. I get to see her every day for a few hours but it is not enough. Kevin on the other hand is holding firm on what our doctor, the one we trust as he reminds me, has said. Luckily, my doctor is suppose to be back on tomorrow. So for now I sit...in a hospital room, the same room I have been in for 4 days now, in a bed that they will not let me leave, missing my daughter, and my dog, and my bed, and REAL food...until my doctor either says oh you can go home or nope you're staying still or we're going to have a baby now! Frustrating to say the least.
Regardless, it appears I will be having Kyan much sooner than my due date. Most likely no later than 37 weeks--which is March 23rd, but possibly sooner than that date as well.
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